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Ditching the Scale

Ditching the Scale

I recently had a conversation with my nutritionist Julianna and she asked how my progress was going and I said “I lost 11lbs, but this is the weight I start climbing back up” I have been hitting a wall at 220lbs, I just cant get past that number. Julianna said “Angela, you are always going to weigh. You have A lot of muscle mass, that is how your body is made up, its just that we want that weight to be muscle not fat.”

Man that was such a hard pill to swallow.

We all have this idea of what weight loss is all about. I thought my goal was going to be at least 170lbs or less and 20% body fat. Then I get a bomb like this. “You will always weigh” It really blew my mind.

Like, the concept that I will always weigh ….. what did that mean to me? That meant that I will always be fat. Julianna saw the tears in my eyes and started to explain. My body is the perfect make up to be more of a power lifter, which I don’t see myself as that but that is what I love to do, Lift weights. She said that I am a slave to a number and I need to stop. So she suggested that I weigh myself once a month and get a body fat analysis monitor. There are other things I should focus on, Body fat/measurements/how my clothes fit. The scale doesn’t tell you everything.

When you weigh yourself often this can become a very destructive pattern, the scale for me was dictating my steps towards my health. I was stressed, discouraged, and obsessive. I have always used the scale to keep me accountable and in check. SO now that I don’t have that to measure my progress, I was nervous that this would discourage me on my weight loss journey.

The last time I weighed myself was September 27th and I have realized that the steps that I do daily cant be weighted: the healthy food I eat, my sleep, hydration, exercise…. These things don’t change just because of my weight. These are the things I will continue to do for the rest of my life.  So it has been hard to not weigh myself but nice not to have that number hanging over my head. I cant tell you what I weigh right now. BUT, I can tell you that I feel good, I have been making choices that are in line with my goals for the most part, and my clothes are getting looser. So I maybe 200lbs for the rest of my life but if I am 20% or less body fat….. then I will be okay with that.

“Accepting your body as it is right now allows you to make decisions about caring for yourself in the present moment, which is, after all, the only moment you have any influence over.”


An Addiction I was too proud to have …

“Anxiety weighs down the heart, but a kind word cheers it up.” Proverbs 12:25

Guest Blog Today!!!


I  struggle daily with anxiety, my confidence, and self esteem about my weight, but that is getting better every day.

I can only do this through The Lords strength and daily prayer. If you are struggling with anything, I am always here to talk. I have learned in my years that sometimes just telling someone about what you are going through is the first step to healing. Because its only then you will see that people will still love who you are with all your scars, brokenness, and baggage.


Sugar Detox

sugarSo I have been on a really strict diet to kill the Candida yeast in my system. I have had a diet for 10 years of “eat what ever I want” this consisted of sugar, sugar, and more sugar. I have shared how I would sit down and eat about a dozen Sprinkles Cupcakes in about 2 days. Or I would have a full breakfast and two donuts. One of the biggest habits that I had … not even realizing it, dessert after dinner. I grew up in a house where my dad had to have sweet after every dinner, he went so far one night to eat cake mix. The actual CAKE MIX POWDER!!! This was my learned behavior, that I didn’t even realized that I carried on this habit into my adulthood. Then this Candida diet happened and I realized that I carried on my dads habit and it was really hard to break.

Julianna (nutritionist) first presented the diet to me I said there are three things I will not break Coffee, Bacon, & Strawberries. She said its only six weeks and you will bend on those things for a better you. She was right. No coffee because it contains mold (all coffee naturally had mold) also the I am so resistant to caffeine it means I abuse it. No bacon, even though I eat nitrate free bacon pork contains retroviruses that survive cooking. Strawberries also contain mold and NO SUGAR.

{Sent by Julianna} The goal of this diet is to strip the yeast of the foods it uses to thrive and supplying it the foods it needs to fight the yeast off.  The primary goal is avoiding sugar and yeast.  Yeast is sneaky in lots of foods, so refer to your food list to help you. This diet in conjunction with supportive supplementation should help eradicate a yeast overgrowth.

So what can I eat???

All foods should be organic and meats are grass fed

Meat- Beef, Buffalo, Elk, Lamb, Rabbit, Venison, Chicken (white & dark meat), Duck, Goose, Quail, Turkey

Seafood- Clams, Perch, Salmon, & Whitefish

Legumes- Black Beans, Green Beans, Green Peas, Lima Beans, Mung Beans, Navy Beans, Pink Beans, Pinto Beans

Beverages- Almond Milk (unsweetened, unflavored), herbal tea, water

Dairy & Eggs- Chicken Eggs, Yogurt

Nuts- Almonds, Chestnuts, Hickory nuts, Poppy Seeds, Filberts, Sesame Seeds

Vegetables- Avocado, Artichoke, Jicama, Zucchini, Broccoli, cabbage, cauliflower, pumpkin, asparagus, bok choy, Brussels sprouts, celery, cucumber, daikon, fennel, garlic, ginger root, kohlrabi, leek, okra, onions, all bell peppers, all hot peppers, radish, shallot, turnip, all lettuce (no spinach), swiss chard, radicchio, kale, endive, greens, cilantro

Fruits- lemons, lime, rhubarb

Oils & Fats- Almond oil, primrose oil, fish oils, olive oil, safflower oil, sesame oil, sunflower oil

So yeah very limited. It has proven to be a very difficult to be creative with this diet because I am SO restricted. I have managed though. I am going to start week 4 and I have survived. I still want my strawberries.





The End of a 90 Day Challenge

So I have come to an end of the 90 day challenge that I started in January with the awesome trainers at 181 fitness

Even though I didn’t get the results that I wanted, only because I want it to always be more dramatic and I always demand more of myself than anyone else in my life. I did realize that I have come a long way. Someone told me that what I do is hard. My workouts daily, eating healthy daily, and just being able to stick to this routine for 90 days is hard. Speaking as the person doing the challenge ……. I didn’t think it was hard at all. In fact I think that its easy. I think its a combination of God giving me the strength and determination to do this and my stubborn desire to see if I can do this.  I just look at Alana and Cody and say “I’ll try it” and sometimes I am telling them how I cant do it as I am actually doing the exercise. Now it IS called a challenge because it does in fact challenge you, but I just did it. Some people would say “I couldn’t do what you do” and I disagree. I believe that everyone can do what I do for weight loss. Its just a lot of small steps I do daily that add up. Looking back we started with 9 people doing the 90 day challenge and at the end there were 5 people. I came in 3rd place overall. This is the first Challenge that I came in the top 3. I just thought Finally! LOL

I think what my saving grace was and what helped me through this challenge is the fact that no matter how many happy hours I missed or how many times I wanted to have a glass of wine or a pint (yes a pint… there is still a fat girl inside of me) of ice cream, the goal I set for myself was more important. Also CONSISTENCY … I can never stress how important consistency is enough. So the next time you want to reach for a cookie or the office donut, ask yourself, “Is this in line with my goals? Is this going to help me achieve my goal? Am I willing to accept the consequences of this choice?” Sometimes its worth derailing yourself but then you run and jump back on that wagon. That has been the best thing I have learned about goals and keeping myself accountable. “I am not a mindless eating machine” said by the best Disney Shark around.

Okay here are my results for the 90 Day Challenge

Weight: loss of 12lbs

Waist: loss of 1.25 inches

Body Fat: loss of 2%

Squat: Started at 143 Ended at 166

Bench Press: Started at 93 Ended at 97 (not as impressive and this is where I want to improve)

So not only did I lose weight I got stronger and build more lean muscle.

If you are in the Vista, Ca area and you are interested in doing an awesome challenge 181 Fitness has one coming up in June. Go to their website for more info http://www.181fitness.com

Here is my before and after picture since I started in January 2012: Although I have a long way to go, I have come a long way in this weight loss journey.

Before After 2013











*** Don’t forget I am starting my new series “Mess of Me”